January 2010
157 posts
eleven twelve
i will take comfort in the fact that it can only get better from here.
December 2009
67 posts
where are all my friends when i need them most?
now i have all these regrets
and me and this body and this mind to carry with me for the next month
or the next indeterminable amount of time
or until i decide i can’t do it anymore
so maybe ill just pretend i never met you, for now
because you can’t miss someone you never knew.
and sometimes i wonder if i had done as you did
and said ‘this is how it will be, like it or...
“And I was lost, and I was found. But I was alive, and now I’ve drowned.”
“All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say...”
– Nike (via jessicachu)
every bone in my body is telling me to run and pretend like none of this ever happened.
you never sleep this late.
don't go. please.
i was just trying to explain to you that i don’t know if i’m strong enough to be the person you want me to be
i didn’t mean to hurt you
but i’m just a person
who’s so incredibly in love with you
and i’m doing my best.
cause thats all i know how to do
i don’t know if it’ll ever be good enough.
hi. first of all…thank you. i missed you too. thank you for the dinner, and the jacket, and the money. and the compliments and the favors.
but really…all this makes me uncomfortable. you make me uncomfortable. you don’t need to buy my affections, really, i missed you as much as you missed me and i liked seeing you again. but it makes me squirm when you tell me i’m...
it's like this
it’s like flicking off the last light in the room only to realize you’ve immersed yourself in complete darkness
it’s like looking out the window at night and noticing that the sky is lighter than the earth
which means the sun is out there, somewhere, still burning.
“my money’s riding on this dark horse, baby
my heart is saying it’s...”
‘the people who will bring me down, are the people who will make me stronger.’
thats what i will keep in mind this year.
it's this simple:
i wish you were here instead of there.
you hit it right on the nose, and you weren't even...
me: yeah, sorry for...causing trouble
mom: it's fine, you just can't expect us to drop everything for you. especially when other people don't seem to even be trying.
“The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so...”
– Bertrand Russell (via quotewhore)
cashier peeves
a.k.a “how to make a cashier want to kill you”
1. ocd and re-baggers, and bag whores customer, i promise you that your ice cream will not melt on the 5 minute drive home if it isn’t in a cooler bag surrounded by other cold things. and your hermetically sealed meat packages will not leak and therefore do not need to be triple bagged in plastic. buying 2 dollars worth of plastic...
just like they said we would
being invincible is not needing anybody. being invincible is leaving without saying goodbye or looking back being invincible is telling the truth without being scared or regretting your words being invincible is ignoring when they whisper or say things that hurt being invincible is waking up and doing exactly what you want or feel like doing being invincible is being to deaf to anyone else’s...
only now do i understand that loving someone is hurting them and being loved is hurting yourself
and the only reason we keep going is because the loving is always worth the hurting.
“Nothing is important, so people realising that, should get on with their lives,...”
– Morrissey (via jessicachu)
the letter you aren't reading
don’t think that i wrote it down because i don’t believe in us.
know that i did it because i absolutely, truly and completely do.
“You say that the way I feel, it’s all just chemicals in my brain.
...”
– I Wrote This For You
yeah, i'm gonna be needy.
can you tell me again why i waste so much time alone when i have you?
can you tell me why it hurts so much to know i have almost ten more hours until i even get to see you again?
i miss your phone. it’s kind of pathetic.
Well Then
jamiebasso:
My wonderful friend just asked me what I was happiest doing.
It took me a minute to really think about it, but as soon as it came to me, I KNEW without question what it was.
Driving.
Is that pathetic?
nope.
driving = freedom
and freedom’s pretty nice.
“The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It...”
– George Carlin (via liquidnight) (via bohemea)
i love that you’re also my best friend.
“Resolve to take fate by the throat and shake a living out of her.”
– Louisa May Alcott (via spanghew) (via bohemea)
musical youtube collab →
this is so fun to play with and so relaxing.
“cages or wings? which do you prefer? ask the birds.
fear or love, baby,...”
– Louder Than Words, Tick, Tick…BOOM!
let me tell you something now this morning i should’ve woken slowly should’ve woken slowly tangled in you should’ve woken slowly to the smell of your skin should’ve woken slowly to the snow falling lightly out the window should’ve woken slowly to warm music in my head should’ve woken slowly to your voice to your kiss to your body to your love
but that...
“If you get between me and the things I love, I will ask you politely to move.
...”
– I Wrote This For You
in it for the long haul.
i would’ve stood on that stage under a spotlight all alone and screamed out my love just for you
even if you were the only one sitting there
even if you weren’t paying attention
even if you got up and walked away.
you know that i work to fit us in at least once a week
but the truth is
inside, i’m working everything and everyone in around you.
when you try and talk to me i just want you to back off but when you stop talking i just want you to come hold me.
fuck.
HI wanna know something? we aren’t just friends. i promise you, i’m her whole fucking world.
jesus.