December 2010
42 posts
1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before? got served alcohol in a restaurant without being ID’d applied to university got dumped finished 11th grade learned to play guitar got over being dumped had straight, heterosexual sex went to new york city fell in love with one of my best friends many times over went to my school’s winter formal failed my driver’s test...
2 tags
you’ve made me, into someone who should not hold a loaded gun and now you sit upon my chest knock out my wind, knock out my best
i am soft for only you impale me with your tongue is true and slices of me piled sky-high the same old me to the naked eye
but i can’t find myself tonight
this feels a bit like before.
when the closest i could get to you electing to speak with me was when you made guest-appearances in my dreams.
ever since we had that conversation i’m constantly second-guessing how you’re feeling about me at every moment.
it makes me feel like i need to censor myself. but i figure i’ve always put my all into relationships, and it might harm me more in the long run to hold things back.
and then at least, when it all falls apart, i’ll always know i did my best.
if i could have staged and scripted this night, it would not have gone better. i feel loved, i feel your remorse, i feel like we’re on the same page again. i feel closer to you than i have in a while.
thanks.
used to think you needed me too.
3 tags
all these people drinking lover’s spit they sit around and clean their face with it.
day 5
a time you thought about ending your own life
i’d like to say it was one of the harder times in my life, like when i got broken up with or when my grandfather died or all those times my parents screamed at each other in front of us.
but that’s never how it has been - always a thought i entertain for a short moment when i’m in that weird depressed state of mind that seems to go...
this is lovely. →
specifically when you take into account that the video was made by her girlfriend
“What is soul? It’s like electricity — we don’t really know what it is, but it’s...”
– Ray Charles (via tinygandhi)
day 4
views on religion.
“i’m marching to Zion a camera in my hand i hear people crying - dying, for for this bloodstained land. the streets of old jerusalem are lined with souvenirs and those buying them it sounds cold, but i cannot see how this theme park has shaped history.
cause virgins don’t have babies and water, it isn’t wine and there’s a holy spirit, maybe but...
day 3
view on drugs and alcohol
if you’re old enough and informed enough to know what you’re doing, yes. if you aren’t hurting anyone else by doing what you’re doing, yes. if you aren’t sacrificing other more important parts of your life, yes. if you aren’t dependent on it to function or aren’t using it to escape other less desirable parts of your life, then...
day 2
where i’d like to be in ten years
let’s see here…if i do my undergraduate in the next four years, i’ll be done when i’m 22, if do my master’s i’ll probably still be finishing that when i’m 27.
and also hopefully working, living in a city, being crazy about someone and hopefully living with them, getting drunk often and having a lot of sex.
day 1
currently in a going-on-seven-months relationship. it is lovely most of the time. i sometimes feel like i’m married. i sometimes wonder how people stay married for 20 years.
anyway we haven’t had the greatest week so its not the best time to comment. but i love him very much and he is very good to me.
also men are entirely clueless. and i hate generalizations.
the end.
and yes i am allowed to sit at home and fume when i found out boyfriend and girl playing opposite him in the musical have already rehearsed the scene in which they make intimate contact and i was not informed because i was at home throwing up my own stomach mucus.
and no i will not be mature about it
at least not on tumblr. no one needs to be mature on tumblr.
the end.
so awks when dick .gifs appear on my dashboard.
3 tags
will you share your life with me? for the next ten minutes for the next ten minutes? we can handle that.
we could watch the waves we could watch the sky or just sit and wait as the time ticks by and if we make it til then can i ask you again? for another ten
and if you in turn agree to the next ten minutes and the next ten minutes til the morning comes then just holding you might compel me to...
i hate that you’re mean to my boyfriend and you seem to think i should be ok with that. i hate that you pretended to be his friends, and then used him for his house and alcohol. i hate that you didn’t say any of this to his face.
i hate that you told me you thought you were losing me and expected me to fix it all even though you stopped inviting me to things last year and even now...
